You thought it was because I loved her more.

What I don't say is it was because I have greater expectations for you.

Year 2011

I never thought I would be back, but here I am.

Yesterday I finally found out that I was always most comfortable around you.

You were the one that I could always count on.

But it maybe too late now.

Too late for words, too late for regrets.

But I still do hate the way you get jealous over how I treat my friends.
I have different ways of loving.

And the way you get angry over it every single time is starting to push me away.

It is tearing us apart.

Exercise

I think if I counted all the push-ups that I did from this year to after A divs, it would probably add up to about 100,000.
No this is not a joke.
I'm going to get scarily muscular arms, fear me.

"Do you know how sometimes - when you are riding your bike and you start skidding across sand, or when you miss a step and start tumbling down the stairs - you have those long, long seconds to know that you are going to be hurt, and badly?"
I knew that tonight was going to be different once I asked about her, but I couldnt help it, I just couldnt let it go.

I can't wait to leave for Australia, I feel trapped and aimless in Singapore. I just want to be free, you know.

My love, look at how close we are instead of how far.

I've finally found the friends that I've always dreamt of having.
I should tell you all the wonderful things they have done.
But instead I will keep it close to my heart.
I need not boast about those friends I have.
I just hope that everyone will someday find friends like these.

J, K, R

You do not know how glad I am to have got you all.

We might as well be strangers

I cannot help but not be myself when I am around you and her.
We are so different alone and in a crowd.
Which is the real us then?
I cannot and will not tell you to forget her.
Because the way you look at her is exactly the way I look at you.
&& if someone were to tell me to forget you, I would tell them, not a chance.

As muuch as I hate to admit, you both actually do look good together.