dreams.

The people surrounding me.

They have big aspirations.

Intimidated I feel.

But for now, I want to be a haiku generator.

1. You came, far too fast

Choking back on untold lies

Regret taints the air

2. Light rays upon face

Watches him sparkle- I fade

Too, too enarmoured

3. Dig deep, opposite

In out in out, mechanical

Bones they poke, they steal.

Really, I dont.

“ People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my friends. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and coffee.I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me.

pinhole photography

We did pinhole photography that day.

We made our own cameras.

I am v. proud of us.

Arent you?

We watched ONCE that day.

We fell asleep.

Arent you proud of us?

I screwed SPA today.

Arent I proud.

No, not really.

Superhero Lover

“Gretchen: Donnie Darko? What the hell kind of name is that? It’s like some sort of superhero or something.Donnie: What makes you think I’m not?”
—
Donnie Darko

dont fall in love with a squirrel

Everyone dreams.

I dreamt of you last night.

But I woke up with a start.

I couldn't picture your face anymore.

im growing up.

"Before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times.
Once you must fall in love with you best friend.
Ruining that friendship forever.
This will teach you who your true friends are,
and the fine line between friendships and more."

"Once you must fall in love with someone who you believe is perfect
You will learn that no one is perfect
and you should never be treated with anything less than you deserve."

"And once you must fall in love with someone exactly like you
This will teach you about who you are and who you want to be"

"And when you're through with all that,
you'll realise that the people who care about you the most are the ones you hurt
and the ones that hurt you are the ones you needed the most"

"But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept
and it is not something that can be defined
it is different to each person that experiences it
And you will learn to respect each and everyone on this earth
Knowing that everyone only just wants to be loved."

I LUV YOU R, CHEER UP!

What reminds me of him they ask.

Honestly, what doesnt?

Regret.

Other people get butterflies in their tummy.

There's a knot of sorts lying in mine.

I think it's called regret.

Stiff and bitter, even my stomach acid can't overcome it.

Byebye Blackbird

I never took a photo with him.
The only thing, we have in common-death

Its something we all have to go through.

My Ah Gong died today, death finally caught on to me.

I've never mourned the loss of a beloved before.

His death course through me like a riptide

I barely remember the times when he was weak and fragile.

All I picture is me at five, him guiding my hand.

Stroke by stroke, my chinese name appeared.

My Ah Gong, he gave me my first taste of sour plum and dried lemon slices.

All that's left now is goodbye.

Im goíng to sleep easy tonight knowing you're in a better place.

Anyone interested in this tee?

The world in black & white.

If you'll be my star

I'll be your sky

You can hide underneath me and come out at night

When I turn jet black and you show off your light

I live to let you shine I live to let you shine

And you can sky-rocket away from me

And never come back if you find another galaxy

Far from here with more room to fly

Just leave me your stardust to remember you by

If you be my boat I'll be your sea

The depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity

Ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze

I live to make you free I live to make you free

But you can set sail to the west if you want to

And past the horizon till I can't even see you

Far from here where the beaches are wide

Just leave me your wake to remember you by

If you'll be my star I'll be your sky

You can hide underneath me and come out at night

When I turn jet black and you show off your light

I live to let you shine I live to let you shine

But you can sky-rocket away from me

And never come back if you find another galaxy

Far from here with more room to fly

Just leave me your stardust to remember you by

Stardust to remember you by

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,

Children spinning around till they fall down down down.

I wait for you: it's been two hours now,

You're still somewhere in town,Your dinners getting cold.

I rest my case you are always this late,And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round, Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,

Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday

,So tell me whats her name.

Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside

Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,

Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,

Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

Destitute.

Hello, are you there, are you there...
Is anybody there?
I lie on my bed on the verge of sleep and waking and I have this insane urge to talk to you
I want to tell you my hopes, my dreams, my fears, what makes me strong, what makes me cry.
But most of all, I want to tell you that I feel alone.
I can't seem to be me without you.
I need you to know just how much I was in love with the boy you were.
How you could so easily make me a better person.
You once said everything's gonna be alright.
And like a fool I believed.
From the core of my heart, but who am I kidding, youre never gonna read this.

P.s: I keep forgetting to forget you.

And it's a wonder how one can go on while feeling this empty inside.